As I Lie, I Lie Dying

"But I didn't sleep with her, I swear it!" I said, holding her fist from connecting with my face

“But I didn’t sleep with her, I swear it!” I said, holding her fist from connecting with my face.

“Tell me the truth, or you ain’t gettin’ outta this bed alive, Mr.,” Hannah Jane said.

I gulped back a lump in my throat. “What, do you want me to lie?”

“Don’t play fuckin’ stupid with me, dude!” Hannah said.

“Fine. I did it,” I said. “Is that what you wanna—”

“I knew it.” Hannah connects a left then a right hook to my right eye socket.

I crawl to sit up, holding my hand to my cheek.

“Lie there!” she said, pushing my back. “You might die here unless you tell me the fucking truth!”

My breath quickens the rise and fall of my chest like toothpicks, pulling me apart at the seams—like fingernails clawing a chalkboard.

Hannah Jane couldn’t hide her tongue under a word she left hanging in the stillness of a solitude expectation of solace.

First comes heavy breathing and kissing a thought under a feeling. 

And then comes endless staring at the ceiling, losing my clothes, losing my trust, and losing my insecurity

And then comes endless staring at the ceiling, losing my clothes, losing my trust, and losing my insecurity.

I was tearing my guard to shreds.

I was tearing apart my bed.

She was ripping up a crumpled note.

Hannah was squeezing my hands to shreds, and the covers tangled around our bodies to

twisted desires, flowing through our veins.

Our passion stimulates heat and our bodies sweating and rolling, smothered in comfort.

We pressed our lips against each other’s body as if coming home from a long flight


We snuggled and nibbled creases and shadows and skin.

My humbleness explodes to knots.

I’ll make it easy, not being what she wants.

Lighting exploded her eyelids ghost-white stuck open, not closin’ as her body shook with thunder she moaned.


Hannah’s eyes rolled back—as if demon-possessed.

Words escaped her lips I hadn’t heard before (or since).

Hannah came to a screeching halt, and her body had become dead weight. 

She raked her fingers through her hair.

“Oh my God, that was awesome,” she said, crawling off my body, flipping on the light

and shoving her feet in her skinny jeans.

I gotta get home before dinner, she said, kissing my cheek.

I scoot to a sitting position. 

“What the fuck just happened?” I asked myself as I heard the door slam shut. 

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